I'm tired physically. I didn't sleep well last night. I have worked all summer with no real break. I have been working on the house this summer. I am taking care of alot of things that I shouldn't have to take care of.
I'm tired socially. I'm an introvert, and when an introvert is tired, social interaction is exhausting. I have done a ton of social interaction this summer with work. Lots of "being on" (my introvert friends will get this). The things going on in our nation over the last 6 months have been exhausting.
I'm tired mentally. I have been teaching online most of the summer, and some questions that I get blow my brain . . . really? Did you read anything I wrote? Then the facebook arguments over social issues, and the talking heads on television that I refuse to listen to anymore.
I'm tired emotionally. My husband's health has been poor, and that is very wearing on both of us. For some reason, I want to add a child to this caretaking role, and we just keep waiting with no news of anykind. The waiting . . . for the treatment to help my husband's symptoms or for a phone call from the adoption agency or for our home renovations to be completed or . . . the list is endless. We need to raise funds for adoption, but I am completely spent on everything else going on.
I'm tired spiritually. All of this exhaustion plays a role spiritually . . . or maybe it started with this one. The things going on in our nation are a direct attack from Satan. God has turned us over to our depraved minds (Romans 1:26), and I just cry out "Lord Jesus, come quickly". There is little hope of it getting better, though I know that if God wants to, at any point it could be better. I'm not trying to be negative here, but have you read Romans 1? I'm not even just talking about the Supreme court decision. I'm talking about Bruce Jenner, Planned Parenthood, TV advertisements & shows, etc. And what am I most exhausted about? Christians responding poorly to these events.
I feel like we are living in a Sodom & Gomorrah time where Lot asked God to spare the cities for just a few righteous people. Some days, I just want to say, "God just destroy us all, and come quickly." The world continues to get worse and worse. I know people have been saying this for years, but this year has really been heavy. And an election year is coming up . . . ugh. Commence bickering, mudslinging, negative, negative, negative.
I realize that my blog has been very negative and heavy until right now, but I want to take a turn here. We can't fall prey to the negativity. We must not grow weary in doing well (Galatians 6:9). Read Galatians 6:9 in its context.
I especially like the wording here "God CANNOT be mocked." We will reap what we sow. There are consequences. We are already reaping what has been sown which leaves us in this very dark place in our society. I often want to bury my head in the sand, and just continue to pray "Lord Jesus, come quickly" (and I do pray this). However, He calls us to not be weary in doing good. He calls us to fight.